Transmutation and the Dissolution of Lust

Our Mind and Sexual Energy are Linked

Just in case you do not know or are not fully aware of it, there is a very strong link between our mind and our sexual centre.

We know that our thoughts, especially our imagination affects our sexual centre, I’m sure everyone knows about this.

Mind Affects Sex

So it is quite easy to accept then that the thoughts we think can stir up, pacify or direct our sexual energy. That is well known, but it is not so well know that our sexual energy can affect our mind.

Sex Affects Mind

This has to be so, that the state of the sexual energy affects our mind. This is so because any type of relation goes two ways. In fact we often in relationships only see one side and we make the mistake here of only really seeing one side too, the side that the thoughts affect the sexual energy.

Both are linked and they share a similar nature, just as in the theory of yoga that if one controls the breath, one controls the mind and the sexual energy.

If our sexual energy is made to flow in our mind will then think inwardly about its own nature, about inner processes about our Being and about our psychology. Whereas, if the sexual energy is prompting to flow outward the mind will be focused on external things, and very focused on them even to the point of obsession.

Transmutation – the Key

The key to help us tremendously is the key of transmutation, which is to make the sexual energy to flow inward and thus making our mind to focus inwardly and therefore away from the external which is lust.

We have to when we have these sexual storms and where lust takes advantage really transmute in anyway, as a married couple or as a single very intensely. Even if we are married we have to transmute by ourselves very intensely in these type of times.

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Dealing with Rejection (‘I’ of Self-Love)

Observations

We feel the bite of this ego of self-love when we perceive we are being rejected by another person (note, this is only one of the many ways in which we feel the bite of self-love). Usually that other person is someone whom we may love or respect a lot or expect a lot from.

Here below are some of the thoughts and emotions that we experience when that aspect of the ego of self-love manifests in us.

Trigger

The aspect of self-love that feels hurt when others reject us is triggered when we notice a pulling back of the expression of the usual love that the other person gives us. Also when we notice or feel a certain coldness from the other person towards us, when we feel that there is a gap, and we perceive that the other person has taken the decision to pull back or away from us.

What Hurts Self-Love the Most

This perception of the other person’s decision is what gets the ego the most. The ego believes that the person has broken the right to pull back their love that we identified with the ego believe or think they must give us. We actually or this ego has people in a love slave contract.

Injured Pride

Our Pride is hurt and it gets angry saying that we can not accept that the other person wants their freedom. Pride can not accept that they override our authority and that they break free from our control or dominion.

With the ego of self-love we have others as prisoners to the expectation that they have to give us love and our pride holds that in place. Self-love says: “Who are they to not give us that love, that high esteem and that high respect and that continued love?”. We believe with our Pride that we are worthy and deserving and we are better and so they have to always give us that love. That is the crux of the matter, that we believe ourselves to always be better, higher and always worthy of the other person’s love and because of that we can not stand that they lower their love, we think that that they have no right to do it.

When Rejection is Abrupt

When we are rejected brutally or abruptly, self-love thinks they don’t have the right to do it so brutally, so abruptly. Self-love sees it is like it is an attack to our pride, forcing us to be lowered, it is like saying that we are really low and useless.

Reaction After Rejection

After being rejected we develop a way of acting to avoid the person so as not to get rejected again. But that is not the solution. The solution is not to come on too heavy with the person, be normal or a bit more distant than usual, and work hard yourself.

We Feel that we are Lowered

We often feel that we are humiliated or lowered in some way. The key resides in understanding that we are not lowered. The key point to understand is that we are not lowered by being rejected, but that the other person has allowed him or herself to be lowered by an ego (selfishness, fear, resentment, self-love, jealousy etc.), that in turn rejects us.

Is that true that we are lowered? It seems as though we are humiliated (pride is affected), but are we? It feels that we are stupid, our kindness thrown back into our face, our vulnerability taken advantage of, or our vulnerability, our openness is not understood and that gift that we give of our self is thrown back to us.

We should not believe that what we are giving is tender and nice, we believe we are exposed and, that we are giving the best of ourselves, and that is the point where we get angry. Because when we believe we are giving the best of our self and it is rejected we naturally get angry because we see that something beautiful, pure, soft, friendly and good is being trampled on and destroyed, so in the face of that injustice we get angry to correct the or rectify the situation.

Not Feel Lowered

To not feel lowered we have to see that we are the same, the mistake we made that upset the person, was only relative and it may not have been a mistake it could have been a very kind and right to thing to do, but it was rejected. Overall, did we make a mistake? In the big picture of things did we really make a mistake?

The feeling of being humiliated, is what we can’t stand, we think we are less, in the dark, down, unliked, something bad, anything that comes from us is terrible, that is not true, that is the arrogance of the people that reject us.

People are Free

People are free to love or reject us. Set the person free, we are fine, unaffected, not altered by their decision, we are not hurt, because we don’t have any expectations, any investment, we are not deriving our self-worth or self-value from their opinion or degree of love for us.

Common Reaction

Our common reaction is to want to leave, we say “you don’t like me, me being around hurts you, then I should just leave!”. This reaction is really rash and is an overreaction. The best thing that we can do is to wait for this impulse to pass. If don’t feel lowered or humiliated we won’t have this type of reaction. We need to have trust in the person in that we trust their love and that it will come back to us. We need trust in love.

Conclusion

The big point to take from this post is that when we are rejected we have to understand that we are not lowered, there is nothing wrong with us. We are an essence just as beautiful and wise and full of potential and possibilities as are the others. Don’t feel abandoned because when we are rejected we are sent to ourselves and our Being. And the Being does not reject us, He can’t because He is us and we are Him. Others when they reject us they are rejecting themselves, because it is their thoughts that they reject. It is not something personal. We are born by ourselves and we will die by ourselves and we live by virtue of principally ourselves and not by others. But we do live in another way due to the labours of others. The last point to always keep strongly in mind is the be tranquil and wait for the love to return, if not it is not a love worth fighting for.

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Why Do We Need Mystical Death?

Many Answers

This question can be answered from several different points of view. Some of these points of view are the esoteric, the psychological and the life point of view. These coincidentally are the points of view we are going to use to answer this question in this post.

Esoteric

We need the mystical death for the very simple reason that we are very well and alive in the ego. We know in esotericism that the ego is bottled or conditioned essence and the essence in that state is of no use (very minimal use) to the inner Real Being. Why?

Because that essence is conditioned and because of that conditioning it acts mechanically, and in fact it is not free to act in another way, so that essence in the ego is trapped. In virtually all the cases the essence trapped in the ego does not do the will of the Being, it has its own agenda and fulfils its conditioning, that is what it was created to do.

When that essence is freed it is consciousness and it reveals its learning to the Being and it can fuse with the Being increasing his consciousness.

So in conclusion here, the more we have of free essence the more we have of the Being in us. The whole objective of real esotericism is to be the divine Being and bring the Being that each one of carries inside of us here into the physical world.

Psychological

The many egos that we have make us to suffer terribly. Each ego and the fact that we have so many, weighs a terribly high toll on our mind and psychology. With mystical death we really and truthfully acquire peace.

We create space within our psychology from where our essence and consciousness can shine and benefit ourselves in the sense of conscious enjoyment, insight, balance, control over ourselves and peace.

The suffering that the ego produces in our psychology is really reason enough for us to die mystically.

Also in order to have no more contradictions and to have just one psychology or one mind we need to work in mystical death.

Life

There are two contradictory views here. In some ways for the way of life that has currently been established on this planet, we don’t need the mystical death. Other forces (those principally created and maintained by the mind) have provided everything that we need, and so they have replaced the Being. These forces are essentially the forces of materialism and materialistic science.

So we can live in life, as so many millions do without mystical death. Even we can live happily enough if we have the dharma or merits to.

But if we want to make our life easier, to avoid suffering and illness we can achieve that with mystical death. If we want all our relationships to go well, and if we want to be able to always give the correct answer to the various and diverse events of life we need to die and awaken.

Also if we want to be helpful to others and not make others to suffer we need to die mystically in ourselves, it is the very nature of the ego to take things from one side (our side) and because of that we will always have conflicts and experience friction with others.

If we want to live in accordance with the sun, the solar principles, the Being and the cosmos we have to remove that inside of us that is against all these things.

What do we Start Working on?

Common Questions

To the person beginning the work of mystical death the following question may arise: “What do I work on?”. To a slightly more experienced practitioner a similar question arises: “What do I work on? There is so much to do!”. Then to an even slightly more experienced practitioner the question “How do I manage it all?” arises.

This post gives ideas and information that point to an answer to each of these three questions.

The Order

It is beneficial I believe that you are aware of the order in which one works according to in the great labour of mystical death.

There are basically six stages:

1.) Death of the bad “I’s”.

2.) Death of the good “I’s”.

3.) Destruction of the seeds of the “I’s”.

4.) Death of the egos of the hidden side of the psychological moon.

5.) Death of the Teleoginooras tapes

6.) Death of the Solar personality

These six stages given above are the stages in the big picture of mystical death. They represent the order in which moves through from the beginning of the work to the very end of it where the ego is completely dead.

It is important to know that some of these stages can only be completed at certain heights of the initiatic path, for example stage number 3 above is for those who are working in the second mountain.

Note, in each stage there are many other mini stages. Logically, this post is only going to concentrate on the first stage. Because in reality, that is where many of us are and those who are beyond that stage do not need any help they know full well what they have to do and how to they are going to do it. That is our goal as well, to be aware of and have our own didactic of mystical death.

Make a Start with a Psychological Inventory

Part of the work of self-observation is awareness of our very own inventory, which is a listing of all our good and bad points.

We really have to make a psychological inventory. It is something that we have to do. Doing this exercise will show us the points that we need to work on and the areas in which we don’t have to work on.

The places where we have to work are the places in which we lack a virtue. Always when we lack a virtue there is in us, the opposite of the virtue – the defect, and the defect is always personified by an “I”. We for example may get very impatient with our parents. So in the place of that impatience we have to work to put the virtues of patience, serenity and sweetness or kindness there instead.

Well in reality, to do that all we have to do is to dissolve the impatience and what will come out in us to answer to the demands of that scenario or situation will be the free essence that has these qualities. Why does it have these qualities, because we have freed them from inside the “I” or ego of impatience.

So, the point here is to work on the defects in your list.

Pain

The biggest indicator I feel of what we should work on, is what causes us pain. Where we feel pain or suffering we should work. With mystical death that pain and suffering caused by one or another ego can be overcome.

Where there is pain, mystical death is needed!

Relevance to the Current Day

Another very important indicator is what is currently going on in our life. The events of our life show us what we have to work on. The events of our life are also events that we need to work on ourselves.

We should really take advantage of all the events of our life to work on the “I’s” that appear in us. So in conclusion to this point here, what is manifesting in us now currently needs to be worked on. We need to subject it to the process of mystical death. Remember the steps of mystical death? If so we have to pass the egos that are manifesting in us now through those steps of mystical death.

A Plan

We may also create a plan of mystical death. Though this plan has to be based upon what we really need to die. The priority of this plan should be the egos that cause us and others pain. Because those egos are karma creating egos and if we don’t eliminate them they lead us into numerous heavy karmic debts.

The most important principle to work by when working according to a plan is that you choose wisely, stick to it and be consistent that way you will be paid very well with good results. These three things pay anyone handsomely.

Helping with the Dissolution of Physical Vanity

Facets of Vanity

There are at least three facets of vanity. These are quite broad and within each one there may be several other facets.

These three broad facets are: physical, intellectual and mystical.

This post focuses on the physical facet of vanity.

Primary Concern of Vanity

The primary concern of vanity is what others think of me. The goal of vanity is to impress the thoughts of others.

Vanity’s Success

Vanity in general achieves success when it believes it has captured the attention, amazement, astonishment or fascination of others. In the case of physical vanity, its success is when it has captured the attention (this includes amazement, be-wonderment, curiosity, admiration, infatuation etc.) of others with its physical appearance or physical abilities or physical possessions.

Thoughts

For example there is the thought “I look so good in this jacket” or there could be the thought  “I look horrible in this jacket”. Both are thoughts projected by the “I” of physical vanity.

Continuing on from the thought “I look so good in this jacket” there is the feeling and the very subtle belief and thought of something similar to, that “with this jacket I will conquer the world, impress people everywhere, win admirer’s everywhere, that I look the best, etc.”

This my dear friends, is the illusion at the heart of vanity. If we break this illusion we deliver vanity a very mortal blow. The next few sections of this blog are dedicated to breaking this illusion.

Illusion

A very critical step is to notice or become aware of this illusion. This illusion is like a bubble that we actually live inside, that is, until we stop being identified with it.

This bubble is maintained by the belief in the thought that we look great or are really great, or are something special and mysterious.

It is easy to find out when we are in this bubble because our major concern is to maintain the way we look and maintain the image of ourselves that we think is so good and others are impressed with. Once we are able to see it in ourselves we can easily see when others are also in that bubble.

We have to burst the bubble of vanity by realising that that thought is an illusion, that is, it is not true and we therefore we should stop believing in it.

This illusion of physical vanity is the hypnotic grip that vanity has on us. When we stop believing in its projected illusion we have advanced greatly in its dissolution. In fact we have acquired the power to isolate it from our human machine.

The following sections are dedicated to exposing certain truths that break the hypnotic grip of this “I” of physical vanity.

Physical Appearance, Abilities and Possessions are All Relative.

It is very important to know that everything in the physical world is relative. We may think that we look good but to another person we don’t. We may arouse interest some people but not in others.

So we can’t believe those thoughts of vanity that say “we look great, we look just like those people that are awed and admired etc.”. Because for very good reason it is not really true, some may agree but others will not, so we can’t really say that we look great or like this and that.

The truth is that we look the way other’s see us and that is something that we can not control. We may look to others as ugly and that will be the way they see us and to some others we may look ‘ok’ and so they will see us as ‘ok’. In some way, vanity wishes to control the reactions or impressions of others to be in our favour.

The truth is really that we look the way we look, and we may look good to ourselves and that is ok, but to go further and believe that we look good is the problem. Because there we create the illusion and the mere perception of ourselves looking good gets turned into something bigger in our minds. The trick is not to believe that we look good, because we may not to other people.

For example, we may be wearing a good jacket. It may look good on us and it may be good quality, but to believe that we are looking good is another story. We can’t allow ourselves to believe that, because we will encounter a case or person that says we don’t look good and if we believe it we will defend ourselves and get hurt.

The key is not to believe!

Physical Things are Temporary

Our looks change so much and we look differently to every person at each time of the day and night. Even the great truth lies in front us that our good looks will disappear and we will be old and ugly.

This is something that should break the bubble or illusion of vanity, we are mortal just like every other person that vanity sees as ugly and that we are going to lose whatever it is that we have and we are going to get old and die.

The Body is a Vehicle and I am an Essence

The body is something mortal, it is born in time and dies in time but we are an essence, which is something immortal.

Furthermore we are not the body, we are the essence or the consciousness. Comprehending and experiencing this profoundly will help us to separate from vanity. We will fill complete and not lacking anything that vanity is there to compensate for.

Logic of the “I” of Vanity

Each thought of vanity comes from a projector and the projector is the “I” of vanity. The thoughts of vanity are projected according to the logic of the projector.

It is so necessary and useful; to know the logic of the ego. If we know the logic of the “I” we can really hit the projector and dissolve the effect its thoughts have on us.

The logic is that “I will impress others, they will be amazed or taken or fascinated or hooked by my looks, abilities, possessions and they will think that I am mysteriously gifted or special, and because of that I am somehow better off than them, and they are very ordinary with ordinary abilities”.

Fixed Mental Pictures

Vanity works on the untransformed impressions that we have in our mind. When we receive impressions from others we either get impressed (strong acceptance) or we are put off (disinterest or rejection).

These impressions if we do not transform them get burnt into our minds and taken by the ego of vanity. So what the ego of physical vanity does, is to try to look or be the same as the impression. It tries to reproduce the impression that was received in the past. Vanity does not mind whether others are receiving the same impression that we received in the past but they we to ourselves are giving off or are the same as the impression that we received in the past.

All these untransformed mental pictures is what keeps vanity alive and striving to reach its goal. These are the goals of vanity. So if we find those pictures that we have in our mind and transform them and remove them, then vanity is goalless and the motivation for it to use the human machine is less and less, almost nothing. Vanity is on its way to die.

Vanity works or operates on those mental pictures. Plus what is worse we make our identity using them. We make a very false identity out of one of those pictures. We come to identify with them and come to believe that they are our identity, that they are who we are.

Break the Small Bottles

Regarding the elimination of the ego of physical vanity, the best thing to do is to concentrate on the projector of it. But it is so very helpful to us to break all those small bottles, which are those mental pictures, the various illusions, the bubbles and the very small facets of physical vanity. Like to do with makeup, with jewellery, a part of the body, car we drive, etc.

Elimination of

The best thing to do when it comes to the death of physical vanity is break the small bottles and ask the Divine Mother to eliminate them and to concentrate on the “I” of physical; vanity which is the defect that projects the Illusion.

Concentrate on each centre chanting the mantram KRIM and begging the Divine Mother to make that defect to die in us.

What Keeps Physical Vanity Alive?

The egos behind vanity are what really keep it alive. The more we look into this point the more we see some egos behind it, using vanity to gets it long term goal. The “I’s” of lust are very important to look into here. Lust uses physical vanity to look very elegant so to be able to attract a person of the opposite sex.

Pride may use vanity to reaffirm the belief that it is better than most people.

Conclusion

The very first step in dissolving vanity, is to become aware of its hypnotic grip. Once you have found the arguments that belong to its hypnotic grip you need to question them one by one and dissolve them using the truth. We have given guidance in this post to help with that labour.

Dissolving physical vanity will take attention beyond the form and into the essence and will give you much light allowing you to destroy your false image and take up the real self-image which is the conscious experience of the Being.

What is the Ego or the “I”?

About Time – A Definition of the “I”

Now that the ego or “I” has been mentioned it is certainly time to define the ego. There is the myself and there are egos or “I’s”. We’ve mentioned that the many egos make up the myself. An “I” or ego is something psychological and there are so many definitions that we can attribute to the ego or the “I”.

Conditioned Essence

Gnosis says that an ego is really nothing without the essence, what is first is the essence. Before there was the ego there was the essence and coincidentally there was no defect and no virtue either. The ego is the conditioning or the bottling of the essence, and as soon as the essence is trapped or bottled duality arises, and defect and virtue appear.

You may be asking yourself right now, “what is the essence?” and what is that conditioning that is being mentioned. Master Samael, says that the essence is our psychic material itself, or in other words the material that our psychology is contained within. As far as the conditioning goes we can say that the conditioning is duality then relativity.

So far we have seen what the ego or ‘I’ is from an esoteric point of view, however it can also be defined from a psychological point of view, as the ego or ‘I’ is something esoteric and psychological.

A Mental Process

From a psychological point of view we can say that the ego is the thought of ‘I’ or a mental process that contains the concept of “I” and mine. Gnosis also says that it is a psychological person living within our psyche that has its particular way of thinking, feeling and acting. The essence does not have the concept of “I” or mine. The essence though has what is called a scared individuality, but not the egoic individuality of I am or mine.

The ego has a relative existence in us, because it depends upon thought, if we don’t think, then there is no ego in our human machine. The ego is “I” implying it is not the other person or in other words “I” which means “not you”. The ego is the false separation from others and from one’s own inner Being or divinity.

An Answer to the Events of Life

We may say also that every ego or ‘I’ is an answer to the diverse events of life. The ego has taken the place of the essence in giving answers to life. It should really be that a function or part of the essence with in us produces the different answers to the events of life. We in fact have an ego for every occasion of life. We can say that every ego is really a fractioned and distortion part of the essence, in the sense that a part of the essence could produce an answer to a given event in life in a constructive, just and correct way, however the ego being conditioned produces an answer to the particular events of life it has been conditioned to give an answer to.

For example we have the “I” of pride to be used in situations where we need to justify or cover our mistakes, the “I” of greed when dealing with money and possessions, the “I” of self-love, lust and jealousy when dealing with relationships, the “I” of gluttony when dealing with food and drink etc.

Relative Existence

When we try to investigate who we are, or who we think we are, we find that we are that “I” that has a mind, a body, legs, stomach and so on. We are the possessor of those parts of the mind-body complex. That “I” that we think we are, is something psychological. If you try to find it inside your body or mind you won’t find it. It is only something that appears or exists dependent upon thought. So that is the ego, it is relative or dependent upon the relative thinking that is relative to the concept of “I” and the concept of mine.

If we want to find our essence we will find it when our mind is quiet, when that is, there is an absence of thought. Meditation is very useful for this.

The essence is something that is outside of relativity and duality, something that embraces the unity. We are really a great unity, if you don’t believe that karma shows us that this is so. Just go and slap someone in the face and soon enough someone will slap you in the face. So slapping someone in the face is equivalent to slapping yourself, showing us that the other person and ourselves are the same.

Why is the Divine Mother Needed In Mystical Death?

Why the Divine Mother?

You may have asked yourself who is the Divine Mother and why is she the part within us that helps us in our mystical death. We all know very well that Mothers bring and give life, and we also know that death brings new life and so as the Divine Mother brings new life she has to be related to death too. She has to help us to die mystically so that we can breathe the new life of the Real Being dwelling within.

What Dies?

As alluded to in the previous paragraph, mystical death is the process of the death of the myself which is made up of many “I’s” or egos. The process of mystical death is really the death of one, and at the same time, many. That is, the death of the myself and the death of the many “I’s” that constitute the myself.

The result of mystical death is to free the essence trapped in the ego, so to allow it to be born or emerge completely free of its previous conditioning. In short mystical death is the dissolution of the conditionings (egos) in our psychology and the birth of the free essence within us. Once the essence is free the Being can freely and fully manifest in us.

In mystical death there is nothing that dies physically within us, it is only on the psychological level that there is death and of course birth.

What is Mystical Death (Revisited)?

Introduction

In Gnosis we know death to take three forms. They are: death of the physical body, the second death and mystical death. Even though this article is about mystical death we are going to digress a little in the following paragraphs and take a brief look at what death is.

Birth and Death

In Gnosis we see death and birth as twins, as two factors or principles that are intimately linked. In fact we can’t have one without the other, they work together, one leads to the other and the presence of one calls the presence of the other. If there is a death somewhere there will be a birth and if there is a birth somewhere, there will be death. For us to have been born we’ve had to have died at some time and to be born is to one day be taken by death.

Please note that we prefer to use the term birth instead of life because we say in Gnosis that death and birth are two opposite phenomena that exist on the one stream of life. We have one life with many existences or bodies. We say that life is something divine, that is rather like a stream of consciousness that never leaves us and can not be lost.

This truth tells us something very profound about death, that death exists to give something the opportunity to be born in a new state and birth exists for something to have the opportunity to better itself, before having death take it and transform it into something new according to the merits it has acquired while being alive.

As master Samael says death is everyone’s crown, that is death, according to all the merits and values one acquires during life gives one the prize in the next life. So death gives one the reward or the crown made from one’s own efforts.

Birth and death are really processes of transformation, birth transforms as does death. Master Samael says for the sapling to be born the seed must die. So whenever there is change in a person something died in the person and something new was born. So birth and death mean change. They are both something dynamic.

About Mystical Death

Now applying what we have learnt in the previous paragraphs we can say that mystical death is a process of change, Gnosis says that it is a process where factors internal to us, factors that are essentially part of our psychology die in us, only for new values and qualities to be born in our interior. We could otherwise describe mystical death as the gradual dissolution of the defects we carry within, to give rise to the virtues and qualities of the essence that the various defects were hiding.

Mystical death has the adjective: mystical, because it is a death that is not physically tangible, as it refers to our interior and can also only really happen due to a mystical factor that dwells within us, namely the Divine Mother. Another reason why mystical death has the adjective mystical, is because it also allows us to approach the divine Being (that which is truly mystical) dwelling within us, so that each time we progress in the process of mystical death we renew inner life and produce a life that is more and more the Being.

To rephrase, this kind of death (mystical death) occurs within us by virtue of an inner mystical part (Divine Mother) and its process, not its results though, is invisible to others, hence the word mystical. As physical death takes one to life, so mystical death takes us to a new life as well, and that is the life of the Being.

In summary then, mystical death exists to give ourselves a life with our inner divine Being, by dissolving the factors that separate, distance and negate the Being in us. These factors are the many psychological aggregates or “I’s” or egos that we carry within.

Some Help to Dissolve Impatience

Introduction

This article wishes to provide you with some knowledge that we honestly think will prove useful when working on impatience.

One point to start this article with, is the point that the states of impatience we experience can manifest in us, because there is or are egos or ‘I’s’ of impatience in us or it may be simply a result of negative thinking and desire that come from other egos such as pride, fear, intolerance etc. In this article we are going to touch on both cases.

The case where impatience arises due to negative thinking or desire is much easier to treat than the case where impatience is due to a particular ego of impatience.

Impatience & Negative Thinking

One very interesting point about impatience is that when we are impatient we are thinking negatively about the activity, task, event or person that we are participating in or are with. In short, we have a negative concept about the activity, task, meeting, event or person. We tend to think when we are impatient that the event lets say is: ‘useless’, ‘a waste of time’, ‘bothersome’, ‘tedious’ ‘uncomfortable’, ‘stupid’, ‘boring’, ‘going against me’, ‘harming me’, ‘stopping me from feeling comfortable’ or ‘stopping me from doing what I need to do’ etc. etc. These are very common concepts or ways of thinking that emerge in us when we get impatient.

Find Some Benefit in the Event

Some of the previously mentioned concepts, especially the one ‘the event is harming me’ quite quickly leads to anger. If we are able to think differently in relation to the event then a state of impatience would not appear in us. The key here, is to think positively about the event or to see some benefit for ourselves in the event.

Usually when we think that an event has zero benefit for us and we can’t escape, we naturally become impatient and angry. If while we are ‘stuck’ in the event, we are able to reflect and to latch onto something beneficial for us and align ourselves with it, the impatience that we feel would disappear or at least be reduced. The bottom line, is that we have a relative patience, that is one that is relative to what we like or think. We naturally show patience when our interests are being fed. So the key here is to find something that interests us in the event.

As an aside we say that absolute patience is achieved when we possess the virtue of patience in any situation especially when our interests are not being satisfied. If we enter into an event without any invested interests or expectations we will naturally be patient.

Skills Required

To find something beneficial for us in an event requires some skill. First of all we recommend to you to try and find something in the event that you can use to benefit your inner growth.

For example, if we are getting impatient in an event, then the event can be used for self-discovery and the work on oneself with the goal being to acquire more patience. So there if you are interested in working on yourself the event is a gift and should interest you, because through it you can acquire patience.

On another level perhaps you may be able to do something good for a person in the event and acquire some dharma for yourself, or you may be able to find out some information that may benefit you or a friend.

Negative Concepts

Another point that complements the point of negative thinking in relation to an event is the dissolution of the negative ways of thinking towards the event. We should discover the various negative concepts that we have in relation to the event, activity or person and confront them, asking ourselves very sincerely, whether those concepts are true. Deeply knowing that these concepts are not true helps us to see the event differently and change our way of thinking in relation to it. I’m sure that we all can find something that we enjoy or will enjoy in an event, this will produce a change in our attitude or way of thinking towards an event.

Impatience and Complaint

In any manifestation of impatience there is always an air or a touch of protest and complaint. We may verbalise this to others or we may only keep them to ourselves. These complaints usually go along the lines of: ‘why do I have to do it?’, ‘I shouldn’t still be waiting’, ‘things should be different’, ‘why is this taking so long’, ‘people are stupid and slow’ etc. etc. It is highly beneficial that when you go to work on impatience that you concentrate on each of these concepts and question them to find out if they are true or not. Seeing them untrue will liberate you from them and will take you to adopt a different kind of thinking, feeling and acting.

It is also remarkable to invert each of these statements. When we do that we discover that our complaint or protest is truer when applied to ourselves. For example, the complaint ‘why is this taking so long?’ is a truer statement when we invert it to ‘why am I taking so long?’. The inverted version is truer because we could be quicker to help solve or speed up the situation or if there is nothing that can be done then the inverted statement makes more sense as we can be quicker in overcoming or surrendering to the situation and therefore feeling better.

Dealing with Inner Complaints

An effective way to deal with the complaints that emerge in us, is to apply the key of responsibility. It happens that when we take responsibility for our part in the event that sense of unfairness disappears and we come to understand that we are taking part in the event due somehow to our own actions, and that there is no one that we can blame for that.

Sometimes it happens that we get impatient because we want the activity to finish by itself, without us having to do or say something to speed it up. In this case we do not want to take responsibility for our time. In this case we may also complain about the event dragging on, but if we take the time that we have into our own hands, and not leave it in the hands of others we can speed the activity up and bring it to a close or conclusion much quicker.

In many cases the reason why we are in a situation that makes us impatient is due to our own fault. Realising this is to take responsibility for the situation that we are in and doing this in turn makes the event or activity to not seem so unfair, and so the inner or verbal complaints and protests subside.

Relation of Desire & Anger to Impatience

In relation to impatience desire is critical. We may even dare to say: no desire no impatience. From the desire point of view we can say that we get impatient because we have a desire to fulfil and it is taking too long for the desire to be fulfilled.

Impatience is to have a goal and a desire to attain that goal now or in a very short time. Impatience is really about time, specifically not being able to accept the time needed to achieve the goal because in our perception that amount of time is too long or unacceptable.

In fact it is difficult to get impatient when we don’t have a particular goal. In other words no goal no impatience.

Time or rather our perception of time is the obstacle for impatience. Following this line of thought, impatience is a form of anger, this is because anger appears when there is an obstacle in front our desire. The role of anger is to remove obstacles using usually a destructive kind of force. So impatience then, is that agitated force or impulse to get things done quickly or speed things up overcoming the perceived obstacle of time.

This why when we are impatient we are agitated, restless etc. because the forces that anger uses are stirring in us moving us to solve the situation quickly.

Many times when there are situations that are out of our control getting impatient and angry is really a waste of energy as it can not solve the problem or issue.

When the situation goes on for too long the desire that we have gets to the point of making us frustrated and then we get angry. Impatience often leads to anger, in fact it is a state that often precedes anger.

Common Desires Producing Impatience

We all have the desire to enjoy things, activities and events. Plus we all want to feel free and there are major desires associated with that. So in any event or activity that is negative for us or in other words the event does not produce in us enjoyment, the desire to find something else that pleases us will emerges in us. And owing to the presence of that desire if time blocks our escape to something better we will become impatient and very soon irritated or angry.

This is typical when we are in a conversation that is quite difficult and painful or when we are in a situation where we are being reprimanded. Basically, the desire in us when we are impatient is the desire to break free or undress ourselves of the event or situation.

However, the key is to feel free in the event and this can be done by first noticing for ourselves that there is some freedom in the event that previously we had not noticed or been willing to accept, and secondly finding it, accepting it and feeling free.

Working the Desire

There are several ways in which we can work on the desire that produces impatience. One way is to dissolve the desire, another way is to attain the goal of the desire in a non-destructive way while in the event, or either sacrifice the goal.

Being in the moment is a tremendous key for impatience. Obviously when we are impatient and waiting anxiously for something to finish we are not fully enjoying the moment. To be in the moment and appreciate the moment activates the consciousness and has the ability to make impatience subside.

Impatience Due to Other Egos

The other egos that often produce impatience are fear, pride, selfishness, lust, greed and intolerance. In fact any ego that typically has a strong desire behind it will produce impatience in a person when time comes in between the person (or ego) and the goal of the desire.

Intolerance is rather interesting in that intolerance is the psychological factor in us that does not accept the event or activity. Naturally, as we are not able to accept the event we become very impatient while in the event or activity.

Fear is rather interesting too, in the sense that fear has the desire to avoid the situation so when we are scared of an event or activity and we are actually participating in the event or activity the desire of fear to flee makes us very impatient to have the whole event over and done with.

Because of pride we think we are better than others and when others don’t seem to perform as well as we do in a given instance, and when we have to wait for them we get impatient. This is because we think due to pride, that our way is better and because the other person is apparently slower, not as smart etc. we get indignant and impatient with them reproaching them as to why they are not like us.

Patience

We need patience in every walk of life. There is a formula that is says: technique plus effort plus time plus patience equals results. Patience is an ingredient in anything we do in life, very few things are instant. Because of impatience we can make some grave mistakes.

Behind patience is the truth that everything has its process and therefore has its time and because of that truth patience is needed in life and in creation. Because there is a reality behind patience, it is a real virtue or attribute, it represents something real and because what is real in us is the essence, it is a quality that belongs to the essence. Every investment of whatever type in life takes its time to mature and therefore requires patience.

There is definitely a true saying that says “all good things come to those who wait”, because by waiting we can pick when it is ripe. If we become impatient and do it before, the fruit will be tart and acidic to the taste.

When we are impatient we can ask ourselves how would being patient help us in the event. This question will open us up to the positive effects or results of patience.

Certainly patience which is endurance is required to pay karma and is necessary on the esoteric path. Our spiritual path is a series of processes and each one of them takes their own time to complete.

Symptoms of Impatience

When we feel impatient we can’t wait for the event to finish. We look at the clock, we fidget, we scratch, clean our nails, tap our feet, and emotionally we feel restless, agitated and uncomfortable.

Because we are eager for the event to finish, a large percentage of our attention is focussed on the future, which is usually that is the end of the event. So when we are impatient we are divided. We are physically in the event and we have some of our attention focussed on what we are doing but most of our attention is focussed on our thoughts about the end of the event. Emotionally speaking, we are divided as well, one part of us wants to be somewhere else or doing something else.

It seems that the state of impatience is very similar to a state of anger. Impatience very quickly leads to anger and they both share some symptoms. Anger though is a more intense state and is often much more destructive and damaging. Impatience on the other hand is not so deliberately destructive, but is halfway to that destructive angry state.

How Karma Rules Mystical Death

Introduction

We commonly think that the process of mystical death progresses according to how deep our comprehension is, and due to our comprehension, how much essence the Divine Mother is able to free in us. This idea we know is correct because we have all experienced it to be this way, however there are some exceptions. These exceptions are special cases because lying behind them are certain karmic debts, and as you will read later on in this article they can not be worked upon in the usual way they require in fact a different procedure.

Symptoms

These exception egos mentioned above, are known to us when we put a lot of effort into our practices of mystical death and we feel we have acquired a large knowledge and deep comprehension of that ego and yet we don’t experience any progress in its dissolution. In fact we still find it very difficult to separate it from our psyche, it may take us by surprise and no matter how hard we try at times to get it out of our human machine it stays there until it seems it decides to go. Honestly, we really suffer with these egos. They quite often humiliate us, where everyone is happy and enjoying an events we are suffering indescribably with this ego and in many cases we can’t function normally as everyone else does. Even those who are not working on themselves seem to function much better in the events where we are overcome by that ego. There are really terrible moments of suffering in which we think that we are never going to be able dissolve that ego and we will have it forever. In short when we are experiencing any of these tell-tale symptoms we are dealing with a karmic ego.

The Why of these Symptoms

The reason why we experience the symptoms described above is because we say, there is or are karmic debts behind that ego, which cause us to suffer and prevent us from advancing in its elimination. In fact we won’t be able to advance in its elimination until we pay those debts.

Actually, from the experience of many, working on egos that have a karmic debt attached to them is difficult and painful. People usually suffer when working to eliminate those egos. Actually many people spend years fighting with the ego, to only after much suffering be really able to comprehend it deeply and then by the grace of the Law and the work of the Divine Mother see it gradually die within them.

Karmic Egos

Generally speaking a karmic ego is one, which being identified with, lead us to make serious mistakes for which we accrued karmic debts. In other words, with these egos we harmed others and or ourselves creating a debt that we to balance or compensate.

There are several egos that we all carry within and that in the past being hypnotised by these ego we created karmic debts. Those egos are typically anger, pride and lust. There could quite easily though be other egos that have karmic debts behind them such as the egos of selfishness, laziness, theft, greed, adultery, etc.

There is also something curious here, that often these karmic egos actually become karmic instruments, that is instruments that the karma or the law uses to make us to suffer, and one definite karmic instrument is fear or anxiety. When we experience an intense, uncontrollable fear for no real reason, we are paying karma. Fear and karma are intimately linked, we hope to expand upon this in a future article.

We may work hard on a karmic ego and weaken it, though because it has the support of the law behind it that ego regains its strength. Often these karmic egos are detrimental to our health they us suffer physically, vitally, emotionally, mentally, morally etc. in nearly it seems all the ways.

Three Classes of Egos

Karmically speaking we can classify all of our egos into three classes, that is egos that are karmically neutral, negative and positive.

There are egos in us that are neutral that is when we identify with them and allow them to act they don’t create karmic debts. An example would be an ego of driving or playing chess or knitting etc.

There is another class of egos often called the “good egos” that sometimes do good things for others and therefore don’t create karmic debts, however most of the time, because those egos have conditioned consciousness inside them they don’t really know how to do good in the right moment and so identified with them we make many mistakes. They though are not as bad as the class of egos commonly called the “bad egos” that really do create karma for us.

Finally, there is the class of egos that do evil, that is that harm others and ourselves. These egos are essentially the source of all our karma. Our Principle Psychological Profile also known as the P.P.P is the ego responsible for our fall so logically it is a karmic ego and behind it are enormous karmic debts.

In summary the bad egos are the karmic ones and the good egos could also be karmic as well as they have been the cause of many mistakes. There is a saying that says “the path to hell is paved with good intentions”. Many of the good intentions that we have come from the good egos, and unfortunately if we lack the consciousness to drive or direct those good intentions to productive result we end up making many mistakes small and large.

Karmic Egos and Karmic Debt

Because with the karmic egos we have created karmic debts the administrators of the law of karma (masters and judges of the cosmic law) have to find a way to make us to balance, compensate or pay those karmic debts, and it turns out that the main way of paying those karmic debts is by suffering in the work of the separation, comprehension and elimination of that ego.

We have to suffer what those egos have given to others. Meaning we have to have that ego produce pain in us to the same degree that it has produced in another. That is why somehow magically our capacity to separate, comprehend and eliminate is blocked or rendered ineffective, because if we could say easily separate that ego from us we wouldn’t suffer and the pain that we have caused others would never be felt.

So for that reason our capacity to progress in the elimination of these karmic egos is controlled by the law, we can only really progress when the karmic debts have been cleared, and we pay those karmic debts with pain or suffering.

The good thing to know is that there is a limit to the pain or suffering we can experience from the ego and it is controlled by the law, meaning that it can be negotiated or modified. This brings an added esoteric dimension to the work on the ego. Really the work with the karmic egos is esoteric they can not only be treated psychologically.

Working on the Karmic Egos

As alluded to in the previous section, the karmic egos must be worked upon differently, by adding an extra esoteric dimension to that work, which is the work with the cosmic law, which essentially is to negotiate the payment of the karmic debt. There are three phases involved in this work, the first is repentance, the second is negotiation and the third is pardon.

Repentance, Negotiation and Pardon

The first stage repentance must be the first stage, it is essentially the preparation for this work with the cosmic law. Through our comprehension of the ego we have to know that it is wrong, that its action only leads to pain and we fully accept the responsibility for the harm we have caused. Here we have to show that we are sincerely sorry for that the actions of that ego and for having created that ego. If we feel this we are ready to work with the law as it is obvious and clear to all that we want to eliminate it and pay the debt we have incurred.

The second stage is to make several petitions to the law asking them to give us wisdom, strength and vitality in order to be able to dissolve this ego. We can even make an agreement with the law where we may pay the karmic debt in instalments.

The third stage rests on the side of the law where after having paid the karmic debt behind that ego we are pardoned and the way to eliminate that ego is laid clear for us.

Mystical Death in the Three Mountains

The aim of this article is to provide an understanding of the process of mystical death undertaken by the initiate in the path of the three mountains.

Misconceptions

In our study of Gnosis, we typically think that the person who makes it to the top or end of the first is very much dead and the person who makes it to the top or the very end of the second mountain is completely dead. We may even for a while think, that our process of mystical death depends entirely on our own efforts and is a process that takes place independent of the path. However, when we have the very rare opportunity (one that we must sincerely be grateful for) to observe one well advanced in the process of mystical death, we see that our concepts of the way the process of mystical death advances is not exactly the same way that it happens in reality.

Mystical Death is Processed by the Path

Mystical death is processed on the path, it is a part of the path. The path didactically takes the initiate through an ever deepening process of mystical death that culminates with the complete death of the ‘myself’ or all the egos or psychic aggregates.

Mystical Death in the First Mountain

There is the death that takes place in the first mountain and there is the death that takes place in the second mountain. The first mountain has been called the mountain of birth, it can also be called the mountain of definition. From these synthetic names of the first and second mountains we can see that the major emphasis of the work in the first mountain is birth or definition. The first mountain is about defining and establishing one’s position in relation to: one’s self-realization, one’s intimate Christ and one’s inner Being. In the first mountain the bodies are created, the human soul is incarnated and through the process of the initiations one learns in a relative degree how to control the physical and vital bodies (movement, action), the astral body (emotions, feelings), the mental body (the mind) and the causal body (the will) all culminating in the submission of one’s will to the father.

There is death in the first mountain and there is death in every initiation, just as master Samael said, in every initiation something dies and something is born. However, at the end of the first mountain the person is still very much alive in relation to both faces of the psychological moon, that it is the visible and invisible face of the psychological moon. There most likely would have been some death of the aggregates of the invisible face of the psychological moon, however a large part of it will remain intact. The visible face will have definitely been extensively touched by the process of mystical death, however it is also possible that some egos of the visible side of the psychological moon may well remain with the initiate/master well into the labours of Hercules in the second mountain.

Mystical Death is Important in the First Mountain

We must stress that the most important thing in the work or in the path is mystical death. Even if the mystical death is not the major or predominating factor of the first mountain it must be applied at every point of the path so as not to fail. Mystical death is perhaps most needed when one is a ‘man’ in the esoteric sense of the word. That is when one has the power of the bodies and feels that he/she can act independently on their own despite the will of the Being. That is where the danger lies, so mystical death is needed to radically reduce the personal egotistical will so to be able to do and obey the will of the father.

Mystical Death in the Second Mountain

In the second mountain, there are nine plus seven plus eight, totalling twenty four stages of death. These stages are the nine labours of Hercules, the 7 terraces of Purgatory and the 8 individual years of Job. During the nine labours of Hercules many egos die, mainly those egos of the invisible or hidden side of the psychological moon. Some of the egos of the visible side of the psychological moon may die as well or be weakened to the point of being very close to death.

In the labours of the seven terraces of purgatory where the seeds of the egos are fried, even then these egos continue to exist during the labours of the eight years of Job. For example in the labours of purgatory the seeds of pride are fried and then pride continues to exist in the physical body and has to be worked upon and dissolved in the eight years of Job. Actually in the first year of Job is where all the egos of the physical body are dissolved.

We even know that for only reasons the Being of the individual knows the order in which the egos of the bodies are worked can vary from the classical order, which is physical, vital, astral, mental, causual, Buddhic and Atmic. For example the egos of the astral body could be worked upon in the first year and the other egos of the other bodies in later years.

Death in the Third Mountain

In the case of Master Samael, he had finished here the second mountain and was completely dead, he did not have one ego alive in his interior. So when we passed onto the work of the third mountain he was completely dead. However, everyone’s path is different. It can well be the case that at the end of the second mountain the Being (Intimate Christ) of the master or person resurrects and the person or master may not be 100% dead in the ego yet. Though the person will be very close to being so. At the culmination of the third mountain the master or person will be completely dead. This can only be that way to be able to incarnate Kether, the Elder of the Days.

When is the Best Time to Die?

Any Moment

The truth is that we can use any moment to die in ourselves.

We really should not limit ourselves to a special time of the day to die. Why not? Because, there are so many moments in our day for example that offer us precious opportunities to die, and by the time that special moment that we use to die comes, we will have forgotten the precious details of that manifestation.

The key to dying at any moment is action! We have to decide in the moment to take the necessary action to die, which often is the action of doing the opposite of the ego. In the case of thoughts and concepts we still have to take action in the form of begging the Divine Mother to disintegrate that concept or way of thinking.

Practices of Death

We can of course set aside a time of the day, an hour say in the morning or at night to do practices of mystical death. And most certainly these practices really help us to die.

The more of these we do the better and in fact sometimes when we can’t die in the moment the more of these practices that we do the better we prepare ourselves to die in the critical moments.

Psychological Gymnasium

Each of us when we begin the work of death we find ourselves in difficult situations, and that if we take these circumstances to work on ourselves, they are converted into what we in Gnosis call a psychological gymnasium.

A psychological gymnasium is the best time for us to die. When we are in the middle of one, we to make the maximum advantage of it, to really give our best to die. Why? Because it may not be repeated.

Difficult Moments

We all don’t like difficult moments and we often reject mystical death in these moments, but it is often the solution or it provides the way to the solution and above all, it makes the situation or the difficult moment so much easier and better if we die mystically or psychologically.

At Night

At night at the end of the day is a very good time for us to die. There we can contemplate all that we have done during the day and we can work on transforming the impressions during the day and work on the egotistical manifestations of the day.

Conclusion

Work in mystical death at any moment in which the ego appears, and if you feel that you can’t use the time at night or any period of time to yourself to die in that ego thus preparing your alertness and resolution to die in that ego in the precise moment of life in which it appears.

Death is a Process of Liberation & Simplification

A Teaching

There is a marvellous teaching from an excellent friend that says: “life is the process of acquiring and gaining, death is the process of liberation.”

Death = Liberation

Death in any form, whether it be physical or psychological (mystical), is freedom and liberation. When we are young and middle aged and even old aged we are still in the process of acquiring new possessions, experience knowledge etc, so then we are still following the process of life. When we start to cut back, give up, release and stop the gaining and acquiring process we are in line with the currents of death.

Are We Dying? (Psychologically)

One way to know if we are dying is to see whether we are cutting things back instead of increasing, building and also complicating. If we are simplifying our life we are dying psychologically.

Simplification and Liberation

Simplification and liberation are very closely related. To die psychologically we have to cut away the activities that the ego gets involved in, cut away the interests of the egos, its thoughts and its feelings.

Our lives are complicated and the reason why we can’t get things done or can’t concentrate on one thing is because we have too many desires coming from too many egos within us. The more we cut away or drop or let go of these desires the simpler our life will be, the easier we will be able to die psychologically, because we will have more focus, energy and time, and also it will be easier to do the things in life that we need to do.

It will also be easier for us to live more consciously, that is with more awareness and love. Why love, because consciousness and love are very close and attention from the consciousness leads to the emergence of love. IF we truly put our attention on the environment we are in we will see the others in it and if we pay more attention we will see the help they need and naturally by movement of the consciousness we will help them. Compassion and love will arise and move us.

Conclusion - Make Your Life Simple

The conclusion of this post is to make your life simple, reduce it down to the essential things and work on those things with concentration, awareness and love. This will bring peace, it is the greed or ambition that we have to get so many things done that really makes our life complicated, stressful and it passes us by so quickly.

This also follows the principle of death which is simplification and liberation. So we align ourselves with the current of mystical death and it will in turn help us in our processes of ,mystical death which is realise the essential in us or cut everything away until the essential, the Being, shines in us!

Death is the First Factor for the Revolution of Consciousness

Three Factors

The essential point of the Gnostic teachings is the revolution of consciousness. That essentially means a huge change in our knowledge, understanding, perceptions and ways of thinking, feeling and acting.

The three keys to apply to arrive at such a revolution are what is known in Gnosis as the “Three Factors”.

The three factors consist of three separate keys which for best results should be applied together in a balanced and equal way. This is because they are all intimately related.

The three factors are: death (first factor), birth (second factor) and sacrifice for humanity (third factor).

Mystical Death and the First Factor

Mystical Death is the entire first factor. Truthfully speaking, only really through mystical death do we change and transform ourselves into something different.

As Master Samael says so many times in his works “that only by death can the new arrive” or in other words “the seed must die for the tree to be born”. So we need to die mystically or psychologically if we want in truth a real transformation.

We in fact learn much more through dying then through birth, Master Samael says. Death frees us and teaches us so many truths, that is because death is really the process of realising the truth about ourselves and the cosmos. By knowing the truth we die (psychologically, mystically) and we are as Jesus the Christ said set free( “the truth will set you free.”).

First Factor Pays the Most

Of all the three factors that one that pays the most is the first factor that is mystical death. This is because we remove the causes of our errors, or in other words the causes that have led us to create karma. The more we die mystically the more also we benefit ourselves and others. There is also great merit involved in dying mystically, it is not easy and requires great sacrifice and conscious efforts much more so than those involved in the second and third factors.

We can also as a side issue, always find the first factor, that is death, in the other two factors. To work in the second factor we need death and to work in the third factor we also need death as well.

Third Factor Helps the First Factor

The work of the third factor, which is among many things, the work of giving others spiritual help and light. When we give to others we will receive what we give back, and this help if we teach others true Gnosis (that is transformation through mystical death and transmutation) we receive our payment in a form that helps us to advance in our ,mystical death.

First Factor Helps the Second Factor

The more we die in pride and lust the better we are able to transmute and the cleaner and more refined our transmuted sexual energy is. This pure energy goes to make the kundalini awaken and ascend, and also to heal us and is much more potent when used in the death of the ego.

Summary

We hope here that we have got the point across that mystical death is very important, that is the key to change and it is the only thing that gives us anything that we can take with us to the next life. All other efforts perish in time. It is really the best thing that we can do for ourselves and others in life, and for ourselves before the Great Divine Law.