Facing Death in the Middle of the Ocean (43)

Introduction

Recently, seeing in the news all these planes and ships searching for the wreckage of the missing Malaysian Airlines flight MH370 in the middle of the Indian Ocean some 1000kms off the coast of Western Australia made me think about being in the middle of the ocean and about death.

Facing Death in the Middle of the Ocean

We have to I think be realistic, imagine it does happen that we are in the middle of an ocean far away from land and far away from any other vessel and our ship begins to sink. We may pray to God asking him to save us. But can He or will He?

How can he when we are so far away from land and any other human being, miracles can happen but we are on that sinking boat for a reason. We can most certainly pray to God asking Him to rescue us, and if He wants He surely can do it. But if not, it is His will! Perhaps we do not have the merit to be miraculously saved, while others who are just as important as us, who have loved ones just like us are left behind.

Will He Save Me?

What about if we pray to Him asking that he helps us to accept the situation, and to face it with courage and as consciously as possible? Dying is the last thing that we do in life, it should really be our best, noblest and most dignifying action that we carry out while we have breath in our body. We really have to die sometime and why to always try to avoid it? Why to think that we are special and different to others who are in the same situation as ourselves. Why not be as awakened as possible and to pass consciously with acceptance and with courage into the world beyond before the greater realities of nature.

I would rather break that illusion of being different because I am working on myself and believing my Being will save me when he can’t or He may not be able to. The best is to ask that he gives us tremendous courage to pass through the experience of death as consciously as possible and that He gives us another chance at our self-realisation in the future.

Destiny

Maybe Gnostically speaking, if we have developed enough spiritually in the sense that we have defeated our mechanical destiny and we know how to put our physical body into a state of Jinas or into the fourth dimension we can save our physical body. However, if we are not in that situation we are on a sinking boat for some reason and that reason is karma. The divine Law may not approve that we escape this death, it could well be our destiny. The Pistis Sophia says that the law of destiny has one aim and it is to take us to the death that has been written or determined for us.

Surrender

Once we accept our death, despite how unexpected and quickly it has come we are ready to surrender ourselves to our God. Surrender yourselves into the hands of your God, knowing that you are His soul and that you are going to be free of your body and that you are going to follow his design for you.

Relax

Enjoy the experience, relax, heighten your awareness and surrender yourselves through the arms of Poseidon to your God. Don’t be alarmed the body is strong and it has to be overpowered by something, by much water, by large waves, by tiredness etc.

Conclusion

The facets of the consciousness can be awakened though a series of small lessons in life, especially when it comes to death. Death holds such a rich ground for us to awaken. In fact it could well be that the secret meaning of a person’s life is to die consciously, and if that is the case then we will really find in death a lot to awaken to, because the secret mandate of our life is to die consciously, our life then demands that we awaken to death so that we can die consciously.

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Mystical Death is More than Being Good (42)

Being Good

Being good is relativity is much better than being bad and at times in our life when the ego is really trying to have its way with us, we yearn more than anything to be good. This is all of course fine, excellent and wonderful and can not be knocked, especially in the times when we are experiencing an intense temptation to do something bad or inconvenient for ourselves or others. However, when we place ourselves in the field of mystical death, being good must be transcended, because as you will experience we can become stagnated in the ‘being good’ level, and that stagnation stops us from dying in more death and it even hinders us from dying completely. It even in fact hinders our inner revolution.

Renunciation is Key

The key to overcoming this stagnation in the ‘being good’ level or the key to really dying in ourselves is renunciation. We have to give up something, we have to definitely let go of something, and that something could be a concept, a thought, a feeling, an idea, a fantasy, a perception, an attitude etc.

If we are able to renounce to something then what we are doing is chipping a block out of that the structure of that ego. Hence we are dying. Being good after a while becomes mechanical and in order to die we have to go further and renunciation is the way.

Conclusion

To know that we are dying within ourselves and to overcome the stagnation of ‘being good’ we must renounce to aspects or characteristics of the ego we are trying to dissolve. I want to stress at this point that we should not become bad or make mistakes or do wrong or bad things to break ‘being good’ stagnation. To do that would be really stupid, because that will only bring you karma which will hinder you further from dissolving that ego.

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Daily Death is All that Matters! (41)

Change is What Matters

As Master Samael said in his book “A Treatise of Revolutionary Psychology”, all that really matters in our life is definitive radical change for the better. To embody and live by this statement, is really the goal of any sincere Gnostic person. To remain the same, wretched, stale, mechanical and heavily laden with suffering and mistaken ways of thinking and feeling is not at all pleasant.

To bring the new to us beyond our beloved suffering is very difficult but is worthwhile, because in doing that there is freedom, new knowledge, light, a new way of living and there is freedom and the end of a heavy karmic debt.

To effect any change in ourselves can certainly be done by everyone, but to fix any change inside of ourselves and make the new change part of our nature, something special is needed, and that something special is mystical death, and that is why mystical death is needed.

Mystical Death is a life-long work, it is one’s life project and is processed over time. The more consistent we are in working on ourselves producing change or transformation inside of ourselves the more we die and therefore the more we contribute to the lifelong project of dissolving the ego and making the Being in us to flourish.

Mechanical Death

We may try to die in ourselves every day, this is really marvellous, though with our daily efforts a degree of mechanicity could creep in and so our practices of death with the help of the Divine Mother and the mantram KRIM, can become ineffective. To avoid this from happening we have to work with will and heart. Really wanting the change and really yearning for the change.

When you chant the mantra KRIM and are praying to the Divine Mother beg her intensely and chant the mantra KRIM intensely with alert attention, wishing that the ego you are asking to be dissolved dies in you. This way of asking for death is most effective, so much more than not doing it, and so much more than a person praying and chanting the mantram KRIM but daydreaming for the whole duration of the prayer and vocalisation. 

Conclusion

If we really want death, the doors are laid open for us, we get so much help, so then to help ourselves to die effectively we must sincerely want to die in ourselves. This never fails!

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Lust Does not have the Right!

Lust Thinks it has the Right

The ego or ‘I’ of lust thinks that it has the right to bother another person from what it is that they are doing and try and lure them into an activity that they definitely don’t need and were not intending on.

For example a person of the opposite sex walking down a street to the corner deli to buy the newspaper was not thinking in meeting up specifically with you and being lured into something especially if you don’t know that person. This is reality but the ego of lust lives in a different reality and somehow believes that the person in interested in being lured.

The ego of lust is really outside of reality and what’s more it thinks that it has the right to go and impose itself on another human being.

Lack of Respect

The cause of such a ridiculous way of thinking, feeling and acting is a lack of respect for the other person and being outside of reality due to having come to believes that what is shown on TV and the internet is reality. It is not reality that a person can be walking down the street and then by means of some crazy attraction end up in a few minutes undressing and moving towards some sort of sexual activity. That only happens in movies where everything is fake, contrived, planned, fabricated and manufactured that way.

Conclusion

Respect others, see them a full, complete human being and that to treat them with lust is disrespectful, it is like insulting, bothering, scaring another person for absolutely selfish reasons. Also wake up to reality and accept reality, what is shown in movies is 100% fake, that is not how things work in reality. Just ask anybody if you don’t believe it.

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Selfishness – One of Its Functions & Pleasures

Selfishness

Selfishness is really a multi-faceted defect, and so this blog post is only going to concentrate on one of its facets, and this facet centres around one observation and this observation is that selfishness tends to increase when some hardship with other people is experienced.

Why?

This is quite easy to answer because selfishness is a mechanism of self-protection. It knows that being alone we are safe and no one can hurt us. Being with others we know that the danger is there, that we could get hurt once again while being in the presence of others, so naturally and logically we seek isolation.

Selfishness then is a mechanism of compensation, it promises pleasure, projecting ideas of us being alone doing something that we can only really do alone and of course we are there enjoying it immensely. We project ideas of going for a long walk along the beach, reading as much as we like, meditating somewhere peaceful, watching movies, etc. etc.

Animal in Nature

Well true many animals exhibit this kind of behaviour when they are hurt they isolate themselves until they are better, they do it as a means of self-protection.

Pleasure

The pleasure aspect of selfishness is the big part. If there were no selfishness involved then there would be no selfish behaviour. The main reason why we obey the ideas and projections of selfishness is because it promises us immense pleasure and enjoyment.

Conclusion

We may revel in the pleasure of selfishness but from experience that pleasure soon turns bitter because it may not be something we deserve and we end up hurting others or neglecting that which should not be neglected. We usually go out of balance when we dive into the pleasure of selfishness and being out of balance of brings pain in the moments when we have to regain our balance. Think about it and try it out for yourself, see if it is true in your experience.

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Self-Compassion is an Inner Mechanism of Compensation for When we Fail

Introduction

This is a very strange assertion: to say that self-compassion is an inner mechanism of compensation for when we fail. The aim of this post is to make this statement a lot more understandable and ultimately real to you.

Compassion of a very ordinary mechanical type is brought forth in people when we see that others are suffering, undergoing a difficult time or have failed in something or rather, and or are worse off than ourselves. So self-compassion is ourselves giving that to ourselves, but in the wrong way, where we just end up getting stuck, not getting up (and trying again) and feeling worse and worse about ourselves, others, our situation and the world.

An Inner Mechanism of Compensation?

Self-compassion is really a compensation for when we fail in life, or in any endeavour that we undertake, whether it be something in our human life or something in our spiritual life.

When we fail we need something to console us and to commiserate our failure, and we have just that element inside of ourselves, and that element is what we call self-compassion. It is a psychological characteristic or ‘I’ (ego, one of the many that we have) that feels sorry for ourselves and says things like, I’m a failure, I’m doing nothing in life, I’m going nowhere, I’m not going to make it. We feel that we can’t achieve, that we can’t get to where we want to go.

 Self-compassion seeks others that are sympathetic to its failure and join us in our lamentations about having failed. It doesn’t like people who say: “get up and try again” and or “stop feeling sorry for yourself and just do it”. This is because it wants to compensate for its failure by giving itself compassion, recovery time, rest, feel good movies, feel good comfort food, lamentations, regrets, going over and over the reasons why we failed, blaming others etc. etc.

A Debt with Ourselves

When we don’t do all that we can, in other words when we don’t give our best we create a debt with ourselves. Or when we have an expectation of ourself, we create a debt with ourselves when we fail. And to compensate for that debt or to pay that debt we have the psychological element called self-compassion that trues to cancel that debt by giving ourselves compassion of a negative type, justifying the failure saying that wea re useless and good for nothing.

The Right Kind of Self-Compassion

If we were to say to people don’t have compassion with yourself, a lot of people would protest. We actually want to say don’t have the negative type of self-compassion with yourself. Definitely don’t indulge in that and go ahead and eliminate it, already.

You can have the positive self-compassion which recognises that we failed and impulses us to get up immediately and learn about where we failed, and try again correcting our path that lead to our failure. Get up, repent, repair and go again until you triumph, that is the real self-compassion because that is what brings you hope, makes you authentically feel better and leads you to triumph which is entirely in your benefit. The other negative type of self-compassion leads you in a hole that you dig deeper and deeper every minute that you don’t get out of it.

Conclusion

So I really hope that we have made this topic of self-compassion a lot clearer and that you may find it useful for when you feel self-compassion to be able to understand that when we feel this way, we are only trying to balance our failure and we don’t need self-compassion to do that for us we can do it by trying again, getting up and going again!

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Lust is About Imbalance

Introduction

This is a very strange assertion: to say that lust is about an imbalance. The aim of this post is to make this statement much more understandable.

How is Lust an Imbalance?

Due to desire a need is born inside of us, and this need pushes us from inside to go and balance this desire with fulfilment or satisfaction.

Lust looks to make its desire a reality, or in other words it tries in its first attempt to find someone to satisfy or satiate its desire. Lust has the in-built need to balance its desires with real sensations or anything else that bring some satisfaction and therefore balance.

Desire Equals Imbalance

Somewhere within us there is a scale and on one side there is the desire weighing heavily and on the other side there is nothing there but an empty plate. This empty plate creates an imbalance, and as it is a law of nature to always seek a state of balance or equilibrium, the human being in this situation looks for a way to add something to the empty side of the scale so to balance the heavier side.

When we have some sort of desire we automatically imbalance the magic scale that we have inside of ourselves. If there is no desire unbalancing our scale there is no lustful action or action of compensation which in general is what the ego is.

How Does Lust Try to Balance its Desires?

Lust first of all looks to action to balance its desires. It tries to find physical satisfaction that according to the nature of lust (sexuality trapped in matter and the senses) does this using another person. If it can not do this with another person it goes into fantasy, and with fantasy the desire is fulfilled. Fantasy is nothing other than a mechanism of compensation, we act out with our fantasy what we can not do physically.

The truth or the revelation that Gnosis or an any system of in-depth esoteric self-knowledge provides us with, is that we have to learn not to depend on others to balance our inner urges and desires. One clear reason is because we can’t rely on others, they are not always there, or they are uncooperative and if we force them to comply we are doing something very wrong. So in essence, we have to learn how to balance our desires ourself and by ourselves.

How can we Balance the Natural Sexual Appetite without Lust?

We have the transmutation for that and the act of internal self-remembering. Transmuting our sexual energy transforms that desire into will, dignity, energy and well-being. When we transmute, the desire dissipates, the desire is not satisfied but rather transformed.

When the desire is transformed the heavy weight weighing down one side of our internal scale is removed and then our internal scale naturally balances itself. So that is the trick.

If lust wants attention from another person in order to get some sensation then we are once again unbalanced and we have to balance ourselves once again to arrive at peace.

The trick here is to give that attention to ourselves, that is to our own sexual energy or sexuality. That is to give it attention with conscious love, which is an attention that does not corrupt and does not cause the person to fall into vice. In other words to appreciate your sexual energy, to accept it, to care for it, and to transmute it enjoying how it enhances our inner Being. This is self-remembering; to recognise the great divine power that there is in sexuality and in our sexual energy.

Conclusion

When we experience sexual desire we end up getting unbalanced, and when we also feed that desire through impressions, fantasy and thoughts we get even further unbalanced. So like many other egos lust is a way of bringing balance to this imbalance that we create inside of ourselves. The key is understand this and then to go about balancing this ourselves by ourselves without lust and with or without another human being, either way (with or without another) it is done and can be done without lust. This is best and this will show you that you don’t need lust to manage your sexuality and you can take steps to eliminate it.

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